Sunday 20th Jan 2013, for some subconscious reason I decided to visit the ex's parents. When I got there, I must have stood for about 5 minutes deciding whether or not to ring the doorbell...Why was I here? What possessed me to do so? What was I thinking?...Then the best question popped through my head..."listen Hakuren, what's the worst that could happen? Asked to leave? If so, then leave!"
I proceeded to ring the bell, sure as Hell I heard the most familiar, excited and eager bark! It was the family pet dog, scratching and whining at the door extremely excited about my presence, her parents knew that it would be me, the dog only gets this happy when I am there. The door opens and the dog launches himself at me, it's been about 5 months since I've visited this place properly.
"Oh my, Hakuren its you! Do come in" Aunty Wong said.
"I knew it must be you because the dog went crazy!" Uncle Wong said warmly.
We exchanged and caught up about what has been going on in our respective lives for the past few months...They enjoyed their holiday and are about to jet off in Feb for a couple weeks to Hong Kong for the New Year...I said I don't have something as exciting but I am gathering information and resources to start up my own little business and they were very interested to hear me talk for a while.
Then I remembered why I loved it here so much in the Wong residence...the family here listened to me, even if it was day time jibber jabber or multi-million dollar ideas, they wanted to know and add in their thoughts on the ideas!
Aunty Wong is a fantastic woman, now Hakuren, I know about the situation between you and Lin, she's my youngest child and only daughter that I love to pieces and bits, what happened happened so let it take the course of how nature intended it to go. Since you have no one depending on you, you are jobless as such and with a great idea, why not give it a go? A man without financial stability isn't a good choice for anyone, you have nothing to lose and if worse comes to worse, you could always go back into the kitchen!
Uncle Wong continued...That's right! No matter what line of work you're doing, as long as you do a good job and give it your best, you will succeed! You have famous chefs, high commission earning sales clerks, chain store owners or CEO of a large or small company, CEO is still CEO, sounds great!! !
They're both right, worst thing I could do is nothing! At that moment, I deeply wished that I had this conversation with them 4 months ago! The way they talk to me is nurturing and it feels like they're urging me out to try things or take a walk into the World. (Sadly my folks talk to me in the "I am right and you are wrong" tone...how does one grow mentally with this outdated system??) If I had this talk months back, it would of reminded me why I choose Lin, why I loved her family and it would of refreshed my feelings for Lin and perhaps reorganised my priorities; Lin.
All the time we were talking, the dog sat on my laps, relaxed and napping...I am not sure why he is so comfortable around me but the feeling is mutual, as I went to grab my coat ready to take my leave, the dog looked at me with a sad look, he knows that I am leaving and those puppy eyes says everything he's feeling! Darn dog makes me want to steal him! :)
Let everything take the course which nature made. Time to focus on me some more.
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