Events in my life.

Fri 28th December 2012 Last night I had a very odd but pleasant dream. In the dream, my family (consisting of my parents, my 3 brothers and myself) was taking a friend family (parents and two boys) to the airport to send them off home. The airport was "Edinburgh Airport" but the outside surrounding and the entrance was exactly the same as Southampton Airport, England!!! Continuing on...as I entered the check-in area to look for the check-in counters for our "friend family" I became VERY confused, the inside of the airport was divided into two huge areas. The area that I entered was a lounge area with a live band doing covers of the latest chart music...they had a brass and other wind instrument band, one drummer and his drums, 2 acoustic guitar players, one cello player and one lead singer who had a very firm but gentle voice...I had a quick walk round this area to find out...ok maybe we don't check in here, so I met up with my youngest brother, Bruno at the...

Today, Friday 21st of December 2012 and predicted day of THE END...What have I done on this eventful day so far? In the early hours, I had went back to my previous posts, added more information, details in certain areas and checked for anything that didn't make sense. 11:30am, British Time, I turned up at the hair salon for my wash, cut and dry appointment. I know this sounds boring so far but bare with me...my usual stylist was as lively as ever, Kayleigh is her name and she amuses me with her tales of weekends and antics that she gets up to. The conversation then headed towards the subject of her attracting males that have mental problems to a certain degree or ones that seems good, hooks up with her and then spilt because the guy has a psycho partner ready to kill Kayleigh! I asked her if she's been doing anything different? No was the answer, she has the same group of friends, they hang out in the same place, they do the same things and the only slight difference is,...

Last night I have done what is the 2nd most craziest thing in my life...I have cut contact with the Karly for my sanity... It began at about 4pm during the day, Karly text me saying she's going to return some of my things...books and hoody etc...(at this moment in time, I had flash backs of the times we flirted, went out for walks and talks at her place...all the good stuff). I asked her what spurred this on so she replied she was "cleaning out her room and there's no point to clutching on to things." (my thought was - does this mean she thought of me as someone at some point? Or were you being nice by keeping them?) "Then why did you hold on to those things till now?" I replied. "What difference does it make whether I give them back now or two weeks later?" She replied.. I took it badly, if Karly knew this long ago then why did you drag this out till now? An argument through text happened. Couple of hours later we text each other again...

I have been drinking for almost the whole week...about 4-5units a time and have noticed that its not good for me...I can't think straight, I can't focus, I am losing motivation and its getting very depressing. OK, my ex girlfriend has got a new boyfriend shortly after the break up...it hurts. Deal with it better! OK, there's this girl I like but doesn't feel the same...it hurts. Deal with it better! My best friend, Adam, you are an irreplaceable in every sense of the word. Thank you for being there when I needed somebody the most and for giving me good enough reasons to hang on to what is left of my sanity. Now that I've sobered up a little can I realise that I am the one stopping myself from progress of any kind. With the Xmas period round the corner, a few drinks will be fine, then afterwards I'll go 2 months without it and see what happens. During this time, I'll catch up on the reading that I have to do and get my "to do list" knuckled d...

After a night of restless sleep and lack of intoxication...I don't know what feels more disappointing... I think I have gone numb...damn this sucks...While I still have some logical thought, its best that I take a walk or do something before I mope about on the laptop 24/7...

I have no idea why or how Adam has persuaded me to do this...maybe I am on a downer and just need to do something... Here goes... My ex-girlfriend (Lin) and I broke up a little over two months ago, it was nearly 5 years. We met each other during our years at Uni, we studied different subjects but shared the same lecture halls. It was autumn of 2004, Jennifer, a class mate of mine, found a LG phone and being the kind-hearted type she decided to return it after class. Once Jennifer figured out how to switch it on (mind you, LG phones were very different to the ones on the market and very few people had that brand in those days!), the "home" number was dialled, a gentleman picked up and spoke Cantonese...in sheer confusion and panic, Jennifer launched the phone to my face and lipped "The guy is speaking Chinese! TALK to him!" So I explained to the gentleman a phone belonging to his son or daughter was found by us and I left him my number. Several days l...