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Disturbingly bad dream...

It's Monday morning, I just woke up from what might be the worst dream I've had since I'm able to dream...in the dream I was in a hospital...I think I was a student or some kind of volunteer for some kind of drug test. I was on the phone to one of my brothers for a general catch up before hanging up the call due to lack of reception. I was passing a room, where the door was left a jar, I saw a young woman being examined by a doctor...as I kept passing, my best mate Adam, who was is a grey suit with a most sad and blank expression passed by without a word...suddenly my heart sank, I turned around and burst into that room...

It was Lin laying on the bed both eyes barely opened but still tearing...i didn't know what was going on, the doctor and the nurse in the room was also tearing uncontrollably...Even my eyes started to tear up...I'm guessing the doctor and the nurse were friends of Lin because I've not heard of hospital staff tearing in front of a patient...

My arms were raising to give Lin a hug as the doctor passed his diagnosis notes to her..."No, no, NO!!!" was all i said...Lin and I cried harder...

Then my alarm went off...waking me from this nightmare...

How am I suppose to find peace when Lin visits my dream every now and again? She's now in a happier relationship with somebody of her own social and career status...I cannot possibly compare. I am trying to move on but she's constantly in my head! I am wishing her all the happiness she is ought to have but i am not willingly wishing it...

Ironic...and hypocrisy is what I am showing...Lin...where ever you are...please be safe and healthy...even though it was a dream...it was heart breaking to see you laying on a hospital bed. However, I am slightly happy to have seen you and managed to give you one hug before I left the dream...those are two things I you be able to do in reality...

If ever you are unhappy just give me a call...text...or letter...you'll always be part of me I want back.

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