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Am I...maturing??

OK, I have no idea what has happened to me or how I have came to this way of thinking...it just...happen...

These days what do we see most on the media or any social media platform that broad casts "news"?

Anyone?


  • Wars
  • Fights
  • Famine
  • Terror attacks internationally
  • Terror attacks nationally
  • Neglect of children
  • Neglect of the elderly
  • Neglect of the ones who needs help
  • Political elects verbally brutalising the opposition
  • Quantitative Easing 

Negative things over and over and over...gets...upsetting.

Then something clicked in my skull (metaphorically of course)...where am I hateful? To whom am I negative to?

It hit me, I have always openly admit to hating my first ex-girlfriend, I have hated the way I was raised as a kid, I hated the ways my brothers were prioritised over me...you get the picture, I am a hateful person...yet I appear to be quite happy...working away and minding my own business. Sure I help friends and other people to get stuff done and I feel great but then I like to curl back up into my comfy home and hide away doing nothing.

Inside my own head, I started to ask myself..."so...uh...why do you still hate all those things? You know all it does is nothing but keeps you anchored to a nasty point in life and you can't move on."

Then it hit me...I have moved on in life, I am in the Capital City of Scotland...I have a wonderful girlfriend who spoils me rotten...I have decent flat mates...My work IS time consuming BUT it stops me from spending all my money...yet my hate has being there all this time and it hasn't moved.

It is time that I release my hatred...events happen and time passes so that each person evolves and grows. Yes it was not pleasant and painful at the time. Every time I was rejected or a time with some one or some thing ended...it pointed me to someone else or something else that is better!

Instead of hating those things in my past, I should thank them, thank them that I turned out this way because of the experiences, the lessons and the people who came to pass.


I hate less now.

Thank you.

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