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A little confession

I did promise my girlfriend that I'd stop smoking but recently I had a few...

The cause of my bad habit is stress...

Some may say I'm just saying that so I have a "reason" to smoke...maybe deep down it is. It's not something I'll brag about or be proud of.

Recently on a few occasions, I've viewed some flats that I really like but the problem is getting a mortgage...the banks and building societies have very very tight regulations for this now...I've been rejected numerous times.

I would really like my girlfriend to move in with me so I don't have to wait a week each time to see her...

I would love to have my own home to go home to...but it ties in the fact that I cannot get a mortgage.

Some dumb twit opened the door on my car yesterday while i was working!

In the next couple of weeks, my boss will have a few important friends and fellow business men coming from London and China. These people are very successful in their respective fields of work, my boss wants me to serve them and get to know them as it'll benefit me in future. Being Chinese (and myself included) I know the chances of them smoking and drinking is quite high...if what my boss hopes to happen happens...my bad habit could be useful.

Its common courtesy to accept and offer cigarettes to people you meet and hope to work with.

If these people take me on board...then...wow...i guess i can say another adventure will start...

Its a combination of these factors that turns me to smoking...do you think it's that bad??

As for now, I'll stop smoking and get on with my work!

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