Friendship??

Perhaps in this day and age my thoughts on this matter is "old fashioned", the concerning matter for me this week is the topic of "Friendship".

What is friendship? How do you define it? How did it start? Can you have that with anyone? Are there levels of friendship? Or is it just another word people use without any substance and meaning behind it?

Friendship was once a great investment in MANY respects, when you were in trouble, friends would come from far and wide to help you get back on your feet, keep in contact with you, give you encouragement or lend you a "Haven" for when times are really up shit creek and you're about to hit the rapids!

One "friend" of mine and I were quite close at one point, texting and replies usually took no longer than a few minutes, of course when you're personal business is needing attend to, the replies would of had: "Sorry was doing...blah blah blah...etc etc"

Now? If I text, there would be no reply, if this friend texts, I naturally reply when I have a free moment because that is the way I am. I get things done. I cherish friendships since I have very few. These days with work and what is going on around my circle, I have neglected my friends but I still text them and let them know how I am doing! Last text from this friend was two weeks ago. Take a guess at the WHEN the previous text was prior to this one? 3 days? 1 week? 2 weeks? 4 weeks? NOPE! Month and 3 days to be exact!
Friend maybe busy with life, other friends, work, college, hobbies or anything else, but don't you think you kind of take the piss, when you send me a message, I reply and then.....NOTHING??!!?!?!?!?


Another example...(could be a bit complicated due to the history behind us) is my ex-girlfriend. It was her idea to keep in touch and stay "Friends".
OK, she is a Doctor, she is very busy with work and her life. I can even understand if you don't reply for a week because saving lives do take up shit loads of energy...but 1 month...nothing. I know for sure she has seen my messages, WHATSAPP has these little icons that shows you whether your message had been read or not. So people, do NOT think I am a stalker, I have no time for that kind of hobby!

You ask me to remain in contact as a "friend". I message you simple things like "How was your day", "Are you well" etc etc and I get ignored? Come the Hell on! WHAT is the problem?!

Have I became repulsive without realising and you just thought "not gonna tell ya that you're repulsive!"???

Is your current partner not liking the fact that you remain in contact with me and you won't give me the respect to know this?

Does my messages bring back old memories and feelings you thought you could control/lost...and now you feel guilty because you're with someone new? If you want to give me one more chance I WILL take it!!

Or has your health suffered a downfall and nobody is there to look after you? You've become weak and don't have the energy to message back?

Which is it? I WANT TO KNOW!!!!

FUCK SAKE! I TAKE FRIENDSHIPS SERIOUSLY AND YOU "FRIENDS" ARE TAKING ME FOR AN ASS! I HAVE DONE THINGS I'VE REGRET IN THE PAST BUT IT DOESN'T MAKE ME A SHIT FRIEND!!